First off I want to wish Cindy Kaye a Happy Mother’s Day!! I couldn’t have made it through these 21 1/2 years without her at my side, supporting me, discipling me, cooking for me, and teaching me. I love her so much and am excited to spend tomorrow with her, my dad, and sister.
Mother’s Day always bring about happiness and joy of the time I have spent with my mom, but also make me reflect and think about my birth mother whom I have never met. On this day I celebrate her too, because even though I don’t know her name or what she look like, I know that she made a sacrifice all those years ago, to give me up. I don’t know what that decision meant to her, or how that made her feel, but I know how it makes me feel now. I feel thankful and glad that she chose life for me.
I don’t know what she feels on Mother’s day, my birthday, Christmas, and other holidays, butI know that she always has a place in my heart on those days and I think about her and pray for her daily, just as I do my mom.
So Happy Mother’s Day to both my mom’s. The one that I have lived life with all these years and the one who gave me life.
“There is one thing you can do for me. I would like Joey to know he had two mothers. One that loved him so much she couldn’t let him go, and the other that loved him so much she had to.”
Today I decided to rend Like Dandelion Dust from RedBox. I love Karen Kingsbury and even though I haven’t read this book, I knew that was supposed to be pretty good. I didn’t really know what it was about, but I was just looking for a good movie on a rainy afternoon/evening. Little did I know that this movie was going to hit close to home.
LDD is about a family who adopted a little boy, Joey, when he was born and his birthparents. I don’t want to spoil it for those who haven’t seen it but the quote above was at the end of the movie. It made me start crying automatically. I didn’t even have to think about it. This is something that I hope that my birthmother would say about giving me up. This is something I have thought about a lot recently.
I don’t know why, but my birth parents have been on my heart recently. I love them even though I have never met them and while they aren’t who I call mom and dad, they do hold a very special place in my heart. I love my mom and dad and I wouldn’t be half the person I am today, but I realize that I wouldn’t even be here without them.
Anyway, that’s my soapbox on my adoption. That’s what was on my heart and I just needed to get it out.