Looking Back

Currently I should be writing a paper for grad school, but instead I am writing a blog and reflection on the past. So be prepared this could get a little ramble-y or long winded.

Fall is here, my favorite time of year!  Days like today take me back to Bowling Green and visits to Jackson’s Orchard for pumpkin picking, apple cider slushes and fun with friends.  I would love for a day to travel with a group of college friends for some fall fun.

I was also thinking today about how I graduated three years ago (in a couple months)! Crazy.  Seems like yesterday I was walking The Hill at WKU and spending my days in Tate Page & Cherry, hanging out at the BCM, making late night runs to GADS and surrounded by friends. I miss getting to pour my heart into the college life and having a community of friends all around me.  I miss cramming four girls into a tiny apartment with only one bathroom and dorm floods. I miss teaching family groups and Dgroups.  I miss going to football and basketball games and cheering on the TOPS!  I miss studying at baseball games, Spencers and the library.  I miss Mancinos, Griffs, Kyoto, Buckhead and Linzies!  I miss welcome retreat, FOCUS and road trips. I miss spring break and college mission trips.  I miss my jobs at the testing center and at LHBC.  I miss my small group of girls from LH and can’t believe that they are all freshman in college now!  There are days when I want to go back to college and enjoy it all over again.

Looking at pictures from my FFG kiddos who are Seniors in college and my Small Group girls who are Freshman in college I am blessed by all the Lord has taught me and the lives the Lord has let me pour into and has allowed to pour into me.  I am so blessed in the life I am in now and know that I will look back and reflect on this time in the years to come.

I am going to wrap this up although I could probably write all day about college and things of the past that I miss, but even though I miss the past, I love the present and am choosing to live here!


Monday Night Ramblings

1. Skype-ing with friends in other countries is amazing!  So thankful to get to see & talk to EBrew tonight!

2. I really miss my college friends and all the fun times we had together.  I know growing up has to happen, but I want to know why we can’t all live a OTH life and see each other all the time and live in the same town and such.

3. I only have 2 weeks left at my job.  It is both a happy and sad moment.  I will miss Berea and my students, but I am ready for what the Lord has in store for me next.   I am also going to miss Richmond and the Panera there as well as the Gilmin Group Home and all it has meant to me this year.

4. I am super excited about lunch with KP tomorrow,  coffee/ice cream/who knows what with my cousin HS tomorrow, and hearing KP speak at UK BCM.

5. I miss blogging and wish that I had had more time for it in the last month, but I have been super crazy and hope that will be changing as a get ready to transition to life with just one job and not being pulled in a million different directions.

6. I really miss writing.  Like doing a lot of research on topics and having to write research papers and essays and such for school.  Really I think I miss school in general!  I am so ready to go back.  If only I had the money to start tomorrow!

Berea Week One


Wow! This week is flying by! It seems like yesterday that I was in my gorgeous hotel room in Houston ordering room service for the first time in my life, when in all reality that has been over a week a go and I am now starting my sixth full day in Berea. And I’m not even in Berea right now! I am at Laurel Lake Baptist Camp where I’ve been since yesterday morning for our BCM Leadership Retreat. Five of my seven students were able to come and we have had a great time of learning, preparing, and sharing with each other.
Yesterday, Virgil Grant came and talked with us about leadership and conflict. He also helped us begin the journey of casting our vision for the ministry and the year.
After Virgil left we worked on calendaring, brainstorming, and casting a vision for the BCM this year. After dinner we shared our stories with one another. I wanted this group of students to hear where I was coming from and what my background was. I also wanted to hear more about their lives and how they got to where they are today. It was so awesome to hear how the Lord has worked and moved among them to mold them to where they are today.
Oh yeah, did I mention that I drove the students hear on the Akidio? Aka, a bus that holds almost 20 people. Crazy! I never thought I would be able to drive it, but I did and I can.  There is so much more I could say about the retreat, but I want to get to what the rest of this week has looked like as well.
Let’s go back to last Wednesday, the day I officially moved to Berea. I left my parents house that morning and headed to Louisville to pack up the essentials and then headed to Berea. I arrived at Travis and Christie’s house around 4 pm. Here I was welcomed in like part of the family immediately.
Travis and Christie run a boys home and non profit Christian home for people recovering from drug and alcohol addictions as well as an array of other problems and issues. Their ministry is called the Gilmin Group and they run it out of their actual home. They have the capacity to host up to 15 people right now at any one point in time. When I moved in their were 8 people already there, Travis, Christie, Gracie & Andrew,their kids, Margarite, Michael, and Nikki who were all part of the Gilman Home, and then Ben, their foreign exchange student from South Korea.  Oh yeah, and on top of all the people there are 4 dogs, Gabe, Brutus, & Angel, the Lynch’s dogs, and Bo Bo, Michael’s dog. Not to mention I plan on bringing Baylie down to stay with me eventually.
Travis & Christie have had more than 40 people come through their home in the last 3 years. Before I moved here I couldn’t imagine what that would be like, but I am learning more and more everyday.  It has been an eye opening and humbling experience to live with and serve with them.
I could go on and on about this, but let’s look at what the next few days looked like. After I moved in and we had dinner I went with Christie to take Gracie to a wednesday night program at a near by church. Then we came home and had our bible study.
Thursday, I woke up and went with Christie to take Gracie and Michael to school in Berea. Then we went to walmart in Richmond to go shopping. After that we went home and I working on some stuff for the Progressive Dinner before I headed back to Richmond to meet with Jon. We met about the year and ran a couple of errands before I headed back home. Not a lot went on the rest of the day, other than Nikki leaving the house. She had been my roommate, but that didn’t last long.  She couldn’t handle the rules and policies of the house and chose to leave. It was hard! I really wanted her to stay and get some help. She reminded me of my sister in more ways than one and I wish I had had more time with her.
Friday I took G & M to school again with C, and we went grocery shopping for the community mentor meeting I was going to have and for the Leadership Retreat. Christie and I also drove around meeting different people I would be working with. Then we headed home for a little while before going back to Berea to take Christie’s grandma to her hair appointment before delivering pillows to the international students at BC. Then we picked Gracie up from school and went home. That night I went to Richmond to meet Trenton and drive an EKU International Student to pick up her boyfriend from the airport in Lexington. It was an extremely late night, but a lot of fun. I got home around 2 am and went straight to bed.
Saturday was our sleep in day and our waffles for breakfast day. Yum! Not a lot happened Saturday. I went to Richmond for a little while, but other than that I hung around the house and prepared for Sunday and the retreat
Sunday I got up and went to FBC Richmond with the entire house. I liked it, but I do want to try other places out before I commit to going anywhere.  As soon as we got home from church, I ate really fast, loaded up my car, and headed to Berea for the Carnival of Congregations on campus. This was going to be where I met some of my leadership for the first time. Rosemary met me at the old BCM building and helped me load more stuff in my car before heading to campus.  At the CC we made contact with about 35 students and I also got to meet, Brittany, Courtney, and Tommy. After the CC was over we went to Bethel for our community mentor/leadership team dinner. After that was over and I dropped the students off on campus, I headed to Richmond to pick up the bus before heading home.
That brings us to Monday morning. I met the leadership team on campus at 8am and we left from there for Laurel Lake. Which brings us full circle to where I started writing. There is much more that can be said and I am processing through a lot right now, but that is what is going on in my life. Hopefully I won’t wait almost a week before writing next time, because this took me an hour to write out on my phone.
Now to finish what I had been typing on my phone Tuesday morning and hopefully get my blog up to date.
Tuesday I woke up way earlier than I planned (5:30 am) so I took the time I had to myself in the quiet to write what you have read to this point.  Later that morning we met for breakfast and then I sent everyone out to spend some time with just them and the Lord.  Reading his word, praying, and reflecting.  For me it was an awesome time to pray for what is next and ground myself in the Word that He has given us to follow.  After that time we spent some time in prayer as a group for the year, for the campus, the students, the faculty, and our ministry at Berea College.  After that we loaded up in the Akido and headed back to Berea.  I dropped them off on campus and headed to Richmond.
In Richmond I dropped the bus off, dropped stuff off at the BCM for Jon, and then went to lunch with Kaitlin (the one friend I had before moving that lived in Richmond and was not in college. I do know a few others who are in college).  Kaitlin is “inducting” me into Richmond life while I am here.  Our first stop was Opal’s – a southern cooking restaurant.  The food was yummy and not super expensive! It was so great to catch up with her and share what was going on in my life.  I am excited to have someone so close that I can talk to about stuff.
After lunch, I headed home to rest for the rest of the day. Which was much needed after the retreat.
Yesterday, Wednesday, Christie and I started our running plan.  We are running/walking/jogging 2.2 miles everyday now in Berea after we take Michael and Grace to school.  It went well yesterday, minus the fact that I wore the wrong socks and developed blisters on my heels.  Then we ran a few errands before heading home for awhile to get some work done.  In the afternoon we went to Richmond to run a few errands before picking the kids up.  We had some free time before picking them up so we also went to the candle outlet in Berea. It is so awesome, and I doubt I will pay full price for a candle again.  Well at least not as long as I live in this area.  The rest of the day was pretty low key, we picked G&M up, went home and had dinner as one big family.  Then we did our daily bible study, before Travis, Christie, & Grace went to Pilot Knob for G’s Bible and Bow’s class.  She got to shoot a bow and arrow for the first time last night.  Which she really enjoyed.
Today, Thursday, Christie and I took M&G to school and then hit our running path.  We increased our actual running distance in the beginning by about 1/2 a mile.  My heels were killing me from yesterday, but we took about 40 seconds off of our entire time from yesterday.  We aren’t going fast and we do walk about half of the time if not a little more.  Hopefully before long we won’t walk at all, gotta get this blisters gone though.  After our jog we went home and got ready for the day.  I had a really good discussion with Travis before I headed back into Berea.  I am currently at BC&T (Berea Coffee & Tea) where I just finished up a meeting with Rosemary, the BCM President.  I have a few things to do the rest of the day before heading back to the house.
I am hoping to post soon about what I am learning and delve into a little more detail on a couple things.  Here are some prayer requests that I want to share with you right now.  1. for my personal relationship with the Lord, that it is consistent and meaningful. 2. for my Leadership Team and their walks and their ministry this year. 3. for the BCM and its impact at Berea College.  4. clarity for my job and some of the issues I am dealing with. 5. The Gilmin home and the ministry that we have there.
If you have any questions let me know!


Praise the Lord for he is good! I have been provided with a place to live for next year!  I am super excited about the opportunity in front of me and will share more about my living situation as soon as all the details are hammered out.  Thank you for your prayers.  Please continue to pray for me as I transition into this next phase.

What Does This Next Step Mean?

The next leap of faith I am taking in my life is moving to Berea, KY to be the BCM Intern at Berea College.  What that means exactly is something that none of us have quite figured out.  Here is what I do know:

I will be mentoring the BCM President.

I will be in charge of the Monday Night Gathering/Bible Study.

I will be investing in the lives of students at BC and spreading the gospel of Christ to them.

I will be the only paid BCM person on BC’s campus since there is no campus minister there.

I will be meeting with EKU’s Campus Minister and he will be my main contact.

I will be working with the Community Mentor’s who will be working with the students.

There will not be a BCM building for the first time in awhile and this will be a transition not only for me, but for the students.

This is where God wants me and has placed me.  Even though the details are not as clear cut as they are at some other places, the Lord has a plan and will use us to do His will.


In case you couldn’t tell by the many mentions of Berea in my blog recently, I am really excited about this transition.  It will be something totally new for me.  It has already made my faith and reliance in the Lord stronger.

Please pray for housing for me.  There is one possibility, but I need wisdom and discernment on if it is where the Lord wants me.

If you have any questions feel free to ask.

Taking the Leap

Do I go for? Do I not? Is it a smart idea? Is it the right thing for me to do? Is it what God has planned for me? What if it is the right thing and I do not do it? What if is is not the right thing and I do do it?  Is this a selfish choice?

These are all questions that I have asked myself many times, but they have popped up a lot recently as I have considered taking a job in a new place where I do not really know anyone and I could not even tell you how to get to the McDonald’s let alone Kroger or Wal-Mart.  I have asked these questions as I decide to move to my 4th city in a less than a year and as I am around a month away from moving yet still do not have a place to live.  These questions and more are all ones that have been brought up in my mind as my church has been going through a series called “What If?”

So this week when Jason preached on What if you took that leap? I was really impacted.  I had already felt sure that going to BC was the thing I was supposed to do, but even that hadn’t stopped the questions and I can’t say that there aren’t still moments when I ask if this is the right thing, but I have been put at peace with where I am headed.

Here are some of the highlights from the sermon that really spoke to me.

We were examining this question using text from 1 Samuel 14.  Where Jonathan and his armor bearer move sneak away from their army and go to the Philistine outpost. (To get all the details you should totally read the story).

In this story Jonathan had conditions that looked really bad and appeared stacked against him, but he considers the situation and the facts and trusts in the Lord’s provision.  He didn’t just blindly make this decision, but he didn’t let all the What if this and that questions get in his way of taking the leap.

The more impressive part about the story deals with the armor bearer, who from what I know about history and Jason filled in is young, unexperienced, and weaponless.  Yet when Jonathan asks him to go with him to the outpost he follows with out hesitation.  He doesn’t have a weapon, let alone know how to use it, and is headed straight into the opposing army.

Through Jonathan and the armor bearer we can see that the leap is not contingent on our conditions nor our expertise and is not done blindly.  Taking a leap means having courage.  Instead of asking all of the questions, that do not get us anywhere and are really quite stupid, we should just stop and say I’ll do whatever.

There is one more person in this story to consider and that is Saul, Jonathan’s father.  He is the king and is leading the army into battle.  At the time that Jonathan and his armor bearer sneak off he is camped out under the pomegranate tree.  Waiting, he is full of fear and panic.  He is also engaging in a form of idol worship because the tree means more than just a place for shade and rest, it is an idol in their land.

The same thing happens to us when we are not using what God has given us to honor him.  When our time is more consumed with what our Facebook friends did on Friday night, what the trending topic on Twitter is right now, or who the newest “it” couple is then we are engaging in a form of idol worship.

After the sermon I was no longer thinking constantly about if the choices I was making about BC were the right thing or wrong thing and so on, but instead this is what I have been asking myself:

1. What am I holding higher than God (What is my pomegranate tree?)?

2. Am I Saul? OR Am I Jonathan and the Armor Bearer?


I am missing out on our leadership team planning retreat this weekend and I was asked to skype in and talk to them about community and what it means etc.  Here is what I am going to talk to them about.  I learned a lot about community this summer and even though I am not an expert, it means a lot to me and I am praying that it is something that our BCM can strive for this year.

This summer was full of true community for me. I was surrounded by people who wanted to know me and wanted to grow with me and I felt the same about them. We lived together, served our God together, and just did life with one another. It was not always easy but it was rewarding to work through the difficult time, work past differences and be there for one another.

I wrote this entry in my journal when I was really struggling with what community was supposed to look:

“I am scared of relationships, of getting in too deep and then having to leave these people. Lord help me. Help me be transparent and open to community. I want to surrender and not fight. ”

God taught me that you have to know stories and build relationships to have community and I was a part of it all summer. It is easy to look at people and not get to know them because you aren’t going to see them past this week or this month or this semester, but in order to gain community you have to move past time and build relationships.

I have been reading through Job and in the beginning when he is being tested and going through some rough times his “friends” are only there to judge him and his situation. They don’t have a deep relationship and without knowing anything they are condemning him. They don’t see that Job is suffering because he is a righteous man. It was hard for Job to suffer without community.

Jesus was the prime example of what it meant to have community. He surrounded himself with a group of people who lived, served, prayed and went through life together. It wasn’t always easy for them, but that is what made it better.

In John 13 Jesus washes the feet of his disciples. He shows us and them that even the Savior was not above the people. The community is cleansed. We need to see that no one person on leadership is above another. We are all apart of a body and bring different things to the table, but we are to encourage and love one another. Together we can reach this campus and world for Christ, apart we are going to fail. It doesn’t matter if you are a senior or a freshman, president or just someone who helps out, we are all one community and we need to make an effort to get to know one another and to not just let people slide through.

My challenge for this leadership team is to build community among ourselves and then out to our BCM and our campus. It starts with us though.