Monday Night Ramblings

1. Skype-ing with friends in other countries is amazing!  So thankful to get to see & talk to EBrew tonight!

2. I really miss my college friends and all the fun times we had together.  I know growing up has to happen, but I want to know why we can’t all live a OTH life and see each other all the time and live in the same town and such.

3. I only have 2 weeks left at my job.  It is both a happy and sad moment.  I will miss Berea and my students, but I am ready for what the Lord has in store for me next.   I am also going to miss Richmond and the Panera there as well as the Gilmin Group Home and all it has meant to me this year.

4. I am super excited about lunch with KP tomorrow,  coffee/ice cream/who knows what with my cousin HS tomorrow, and hearing KP speak at UK BCM.

5. I miss blogging and wish that I had had more time for it in the last month, but I have been super crazy and hope that will be changing as a get ready to transition to life with just one job and not being pulled in a million different directions.

6. I really miss writing.  Like doing a lot of research on topics and having to write research papers and essays and such for school.  Really I think I miss school in general!  I am so ready to go back.  If only I had the money to start tomorrow!

Dreaming Big

I ran across this quote on Pinterest today:

“If Your Dreams Don’t Scare You They’re Not Big Enough.”

Well, my dreams definitely scare me, and I feel like they are way too big for what I can actually accomplish, but I am going to keep trucking on with them.  Dreaming and hoping that one day they one day come to fruition.  I know that the Lord has a big part in my dreams and if they are of Him, then he is going to work them all out for His good.

I could use prayers for my dreams and how to go about making them reality.  Hopefully one day I’ll be able to post that an undisclosed dream or two is becoming a reality in my life.

PTL

Praise the Lord for he is good! I have been provided with a place to live for next year!  I am super excited about the opportunity in front of me and will share more about my living situation as soon as all the details are hammered out.  Thank you for your prayers.  Please continue to pray for me as I transition into this next phase.

What Does This Next Step Mean?

The next leap of faith I am taking in my life is moving to Berea, KY to be the BCM Intern at Berea College.  What that means exactly is something that none of us have quite figured out.  Here is what I do know:

I will be mentoring the BCM President.

I will be in charge of the Monday Night Gathering/Bible Study.

I will be investing in the lives of students at BC and spreading the gospel of Christ to them.

I will be the only paid BCM person on BC’s campus since there is no campus minister there.

I will be meeting with EKU’s Campus Minister and he will be my main contact.

I will be working with the Community Mentor’s who will be working with the students.

There will not be a BCM building for the first time in awhile and this will be a transition not only for me, but for the students.

This is where God wants me and has placed me.  Even though the details are not as clear cut as they are at some other places, the Lord has a plan and will use us to do His will.

 

In case you couldn’t tell by the many mentions of Berea in my blog recently, I am really excited about this transition.  It will be something totally new for me.  It has already made my faith and reliance in the Lord stronger.

Please pray for housing for me.  There is one possibility, but I need wisdom and discernment on if it is where the Lord wants me.

If you have any questions feel free to ask.

Taking the Leap

Do I go for? Do I not? Is it a smart idea? Is it the right thing for me to do? Is it what God has planned for me? What if it is the right thing and I do not do it? What if is is not the right thing and I do do it?  Is this a selfish choice?

These are all questions that I have asked myself many times, but they have popped up a lot recently as I have considered taking a job in a new place where I do not really know anyone and I could not even tell you how to get to the McDonald’s let alone Kroger or Wal-Mart.  I have asked these questions as I decide to move to my 4th city in a less than a year and as I am around a month away from moving yet still do not have a place to live.  These questions and more are all ones that have been brought up in my mind as my church has been going through a series called “What If?”

So this week when Jason preached on What if you took that leap? I was really impacted.  I had already felt sure that going to BC was the thing I was supposed to do, but even that hadn’t stopped the questions and I can’t say that there aren’t still moments when I ask if this is the right thing, but I have been put at peace with where I am headed.

Here are some of the highlights from the sermon that really spoke to me.

We were examining this question using text from 1 Samuel 14.  Where Jonathan and his armor bearer move sneak away from their army and go to the Philistine outpost. (To get all the details you should totally read the story).

In this story Jonathan had conditions that looked really bad and appeared stacked against him, but he considers the situation and the facts and trusts in the Lord’s provision.  He didn’t just blindly make this decision, but he didn’t let all the What if this and that questions get in his way of taking the leap.

The more impressive part about the story deals with the armor bearer, who from what I know about history and Jason filled in is young, unexperienced, and weaponless.  Yet when Jonathan asks him to go with him to the outpost he follows with out hesitation.  He doesn’t have a weapon, let alone know how to use it, and is headed straight into the opposing army.

Through Jonathan and the armor bearer we can see that the leap is not contingent on our conditions nor our expertise and is not done blindly.  Taking a leap means having courage.  Instead of asking all of the questions, that do not get us anywhere and are really quite stupid, we should just stop and say I’ll do whatever.

There is one more person in this story to consider and that is Saul, Jonathan’s father.  He is the king and is leading the army into battle.  At the time that Jonathan and his armor bearer sneak off he is camped out under the pomegranate tree.  Waiting, he is full of fear and panic.  He is also engaging in a form of idol worship because the tree means more than just a place for shade and rest, it is an idol in their land.

The same thing happens to us when we are not using what God has given us to honor him.  When our time is more consumed with what our Facebook friends did on Friday night, what the trending topic on Twitter is right now, or who the newest “it” couple is then we are engaging in a form of idol worship.

After the sermon I was no longer thinking constantly about if the choices I was making about BC were the right thing or wrong thing and so on, but instead this is what I have been asking myself:

1. What am I holding higher than God (What is my pomegranate tree?)?

2. Am I Saul? OR Am I Jonathan and the Armor Bearer?

where I am headed

So I thought that I had everything figured out.  I thought that I would be graduating in December, moving to East Asia for 6-12 months, and then coming back and starting grad school and going wherever else God had for me next.  The East Asia thing was a huge deal and I really thought that God was calling me to be there for at least 6 months after I graduated.

As I spent the summer learning and serving and traveling I kept being more reassured about the fact that I was supposed to go.  Towards the end of the summer I started to question if God was calling me to go to to Asia or not.  By the end of my trip and after spending a couple weeks at home, I was shown that God really did want me to be willing to do whatever he called me to do.  It didn’t matter if that was going to East Asia, staying in BG, or moving to Lville or wherever.  So I started to listen to what might be the path God had for me for the upcoming year.  After praying about things I could see that going to Asia is not where I am supposed to be for next semester.

So now I am in the process of applying for grad school at Southern Seminary and am trying to decide if I am going to move to Louisville or if I am going to go to stay in BG and commute/try to take online classes.  So now it is just trying to get things ready for what will happen after December.  I am throwing around options of places to live, possible internships/jobs, and what I will for sure get my Masters in.  Right now my plan is Biblical Counseling, so I am trying to see if that is what God’s plan is.

I am headed in some awesome directions and can’t wait for what the Lord has in store for me.