Luke 22

During Lent I have been doing my daily bible study with She Reads Truth and their Lenten Devotionals.  Let me just tell you, they have been rocking my world!  If you have never heard of them or haven’t checked them out, DO IT (shereadstruth.com)!  The past two mornings, thier devos, and my study have been diving into Luke 22, and let me tell you, it is not for the faint of heart.  

I haven’t finished Luke 22, but so far what I have read has contained Satan coming into Judas, the preperation and institiution of the Lord’s Supper, an argument about who is the greatest, and Jesus praying very candid and honest prayers.

The Lord’s Supper is something that I have had some ups and downs with understanding and truly resting in over my lifespan.  As a child through high school, it felt like something I had to do, but only if I felt “clean” enough to let the Body and Blood touch my lips.  When I went to college and had a lifechanging experience with the Savior, my view changed.  The Bread and Wine were symbols to the Body and Blood and were now a way to remember him and join in with a community of believers to remember him.  In Luke 22:19, Jesus gives thanks and says, “Do this in remembrance of me.”  I truly pray that everyone who participates in communion in their local church body, isn’t restricted by their sins, past, other people, or life circumstances and is able to truly remember Christ as they partake of the bread and wine.  If Judas, who betrayed Jesus just mere verses later, and Peter, who doubted Christ more than once, were both allowed to take the bread and the cup in remembrance, then so can you and I, as christians who sin and fail Christ’s purpose daily.

While the passage on the Lord’s Supper is moving and touches me, the passage that has struck me the most is a little bit later in the passage.  Luke 22:39-46 is the passage I read this morning and one that made me stop in my tracks! I am going to include it here for reference for you:

Leaving there, he went, as he so often did, to Mount Olives.  The disciples followed him.  When they arrived at the place, he said, “Pray that you don’t give in to temptation.”  He pulled away from them about a stone’s throw, knelt down, and prayed, “Father, remove this cup from me. But please, not what I want.  What do you want?” At once an angel from heaven was at his side, strengthening him.  He prayed on all the harder. Sweat, wrung from him like drops of blood, poured off his face.  He got up from prayer, went back to the disciples and found them asleep, drugged by grief.  He said, “What business do you have sleeping?  Get up.  Ptay so you won’t give in to temptation.”
Luke 22:39-46 MSG

Like woah!  Not only did our Savior, ask his father to remove the cup (suffering) from him, but immediately said, but not my will, but YOUR will be done!  I don’t think I could do it!  In the face of death and taking on all of the sins of the world, Jesus, knowing that it was going to be hard and painful, submitted to the will of the Father, and was immediately strengthened by the presence of an angel.   In the hardest moment you have faced, have you ever prayed for it to be taken away?  I have, and let me tell you, the next words out of my mouth were never, not what I want, but what you want from me.  How much would we change and would our culture and the world change if we in moments of weakness said, “Do what you want Lord!” ?  I think a world would drastically change if we always gave permission and took our control away during the hard, gross, no fun, and life threatening ways.

I could go on and on about how God has been speaking to me through Luke 22 thie past couple of mornings, but I am going to leave it with what I have written here and give you a picture of my journaling bible from these verses.

So ask yourself, as I will be asking myself, ”How can I change the world, just by giving God permission and taking my control away?”

Grace & Peace,

Kelsey Diane

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KNOWING Him

This year I am going through My Utmost For His Highest, by Oswald Chambers and the lesson for the other day was on intimacy with Jesus or knowing Him.  So I started to ask myself, “Do I really know Him?”  Sometimes I think I do, but many times I feel like I don’t even though I deeply desire to really know Him.  There have been some rough patches and difficult things in my walk with the Lord, as happens with everyone at some point, but I have decided to make a change and work on following hard after Him.

I want the impact that I leave on the people I minister to and with this year to not be of me, but to be of Jesus.  I want to truly bear fruit here and not just meander along doing just want needs to be done.  Chambers states, “Fruit bearing is always mentioned as the manifestation of an intimate union with Jesus Christ,” he also says, “The saint who is intimate with Jesus will never leave impressions of himself, but only the impression that Jesus is having unhindered way, because the last abyss of his nature has been satisfied by Jesus.”

I want to Know Him and leave His impression on the places and the people I minister to. That is my prayer for this semester as I work with the students at Berea College, the people that come through the Gilmin Home, and the many other paths that I cross in day to day life.  I would love some encouragement and help on this journey of learning and getting to Know my Lord and Savior better.

Personal Growth (in Writing)

I found this on my computer as I was cleaning it out and backing up things.

I wrote this 4 years ago when I was preparing to finish my high school portfolio.  It is about my story of growth with English and writing.  Hope you enjoy, I know it was interesting for me to read again

 

Personal Growth

Why do people always ask you about your growth over a period of time or after you complete something? It seems like such a monotonous question, but here I am again, answering the question of my growth. This time I am going to report on my growth as a writer over the years of my life. This is something I could go on and on about, because I have gone from the person who dreaded going to school because of spelling and writing, to a person who loves to write everyday. I am going to tell you how I have made the change from pure hatred to adoring love of English and all of its facets.

When I was little I struggled with English. I hated going to school, because I knew that we were going to have to work on spelling and writing. I was not good at them, so I did not want to go. The worst night of the week was Thursday night. This was the night my mom made me sit down and study for my Friday spelling test. I was not a happy camper as I was forced to sit down and practice all of the spelling words for that week. Thursday night would turn into Friday morning when I had to go to school and face the dreaded test. I remember coming home on multiple occasions crying because I had done horribly on my spelling test. This was the story of my life until about third grade.

Around third grade I started to like spelling and writing in school. I went from the student who dreaded spelling, writing, and anything to do with English to the student who loved it with a passion. It seems crazy that I made such a drastic change, but I know that it came from the support and encouragement of my parents and teachers. I also made the change because I started to realize that spelling and writing were important beyond just the Friday tests and simple sentences I started out writing. I began to see that the simple things were the basis of my first love, books.

As I started to make the connection between spelling and books, my attitude changed. English and everything that fell under it were the highlight of my days at school. I still was not a huge fan of writing, but it was growing on me each day. I had to take baby steps to get to the love of writing I posses today. I went on through middle school reading all the time. The love for reading I possessed would take me farther than anything. This love showed me the world outside. It allowed me to view the opportunities of the world around me.

I made another connection from the books I was reading, to a wonderful way of expressing myself. I started to express my thoughts and feelings through writing. This brought me to the person I am today. Now I write in my journal everyday. I spend this time writing to get out my frustrations, to remember my day, or to talk to God. It used to be hard for me to sit down and write a paper for class, but as a result of my growth, I no longer mind writing for my classes. I use the writing required in my classes as a way to tell people how I feel about the issues I am asked to write about.

Writing, it has gone from something I hated to something I make a point of doing everyday. I am so glad that I came to the realization that the facets of English are important and not horrible. I hope that you can see my growth, as a writer, has not come without a struggle. The struggles I have faced have made a wonderful impact on my life, and hopefully the lives of the people who read my writing.

 

It is crazy to me to see how much my love for writing has grown even since I wrote this piece.  As I went through college, I would choose writing papers over anything else.  Now I love to write and don’t even have to have a reason to pick up a pen and paper or my computer and start writing.  Crazy because I really was the kid who dreaded english and spelling tests in elementary school because I was horrible at spelling.  I am just glad that I have learned to enjoy writing.

reminising

So I have had a lot of time recently to think about where I was a year ago.  Last summer was a pivotal time in my life.  I learned a lot about who I am and what the Lord has for me.  I learned how to work with people of all types, how to serve in many different situations, and how to work with myself.  I made friends that I know I will have for the rest of my life and I travelled to place near and far from home and truly saw the need for the gospel EVERYWHERE, not just overseas.

This time last year on July 4th, I was driving to Indy with my parents for my aunt Rochelle’s wedding reception.  It was family weekend during 1:8 and was just 4 days before I left for Haiti.  It was a good time to spend with my family before heading off.  It is kinda hard to believe that it was a year ago.  Some days it feels like just yesterday that I was with my 1:8 team and other days it feels like forever ago.

I can’t even really put into words what last summer meant to me other than I am pretty sure I wouldn’t be on the path I am now.  I thank God for the opportunities He gave me last summer and this past year to grow, serve, share, and learn.

I wish I had a more eloquent way of putting into words what I am thinking and feeling, but I don’t so I am just going to leave it at this.

NEVER TURN DOWN A CHANCE TO GROW.  IF IT IS A LEAP THAT YOU AREN’T JUST GOING INTO BLINDLY, THEN TAKE IT, IF YOU ARE LIKE ME THEN YOU WON’T REGRET IT.

Snakes, Finding Nemo, Tattoos, Road Kill and much more

You may think by reading the title of this blog that all of those topics are very random when put together. So where do I come to relating them all? Well all of these were something encountered at DNow this past weekend. My friend Ashley asked me if I would help her church out with leading a small group at DNow and I of course said yes! I love working with youth and really miss my girls and the youth from BG.

So Friday afternoon after work I headed to Btown to help out. I wasn’t really sure what to expect because I had never done a DNow where you stayed in homes and where there wasn’t a main speaker, but it was AWESOME!! When I got to Btown I met my girls. I had 8 girls who ranged from sophomores to seniors in high school! They were such a fun and sweet group.
The theme for what we were studying was Complete – being complete and pure in Christ. But the overall theme for the weekend was Animated Disney Movies!! Each group was a different movie. My group was Finding Nemo!!! After dinner and the welcome on Friday my group headed out to the home we were staying at, but we made a pit stop at the Dollar Tree to find fun stuff for our Finding Nemo theme! After DT we went to the Brother’s home to get settled in. After unpacking we settled in for our first two lessons. In the middle of our lessons the church’s video guy showed up to get some footage for the DNow weekend video. So we took a break from the study and went into Coach Brother’s snake room to see and hold his snakes. He has eleven snakes of various types and sizes. Before the end of the night, all of the girls, including me had held a snake and this was not the easiest thing for most of us. I will be the first to tell you that I was very hesitant to hold a snake. After the distraction of snakes and getting some video footage, we went back to our study. When we finished these it was bed time for us.
Saturday morning we got up to an amazing breakfast of biscuits, muffins, fresh fruit, and breakfast casserole. Yum!! We then went back to the basement and got back into our study. We covered the next two lessons of our study talking more about purity in our lives.  After two productive lessons, we had some free time before we had to head to the church for the scavenger hung, mission projects, and dinner theatre.  We took this time to finish getting ready and practice our Finding Nemo skit for the dinner theatre that night at the church.  During this time we all also got tattoos!  And by tattoos I mean temporary ones, not as painful and lots of fun!  After the free time/lunch break we went to the church to prepare for the scavenger hunt.
The scavenger hunt was so much fun!!!  We had a lot of random things to find as well as Disney related items.  We had a blast driving around Btown and finding almost every item.  This is where the Road Kill comes into my title.  This was one of the items we had to find during our trek around town.  My girls were having so much fun with it and it paid off!!  We ended up coming in 5th, which isn’t bad considering there were around 20 groups.
After the scavenger hunt, the groups went out around the community and did some sort of missions project.  The host homes decided what the project for their group would be.  I had girls from two of the high schools in the county, so we split up into schools and went and prayer walked at them.  It was an amazing experience.  I was with three girls who had never prayer walked before and it was so neat seeing them grasp the concept and really get into praying for their school, their friends, teachers, and students.  It was one of my highlights of the weekend!
After the mission projects, everyone headed back to the church for the dinner theatre.  While we ate a delicious dinner, most of the groups performed some scene or segment from their movie.  It was so much fun to watch and participate it.  My girls decided to do the scene from Finding Nemo where Nemo first goes to school and goes to the edge of the reef and then gets captured.  We had a lot of fun with it!
The dinner theatre was over and it was time to head back to the house for our last study and night together.  The last lesson was an overview and reflection on what had been learned and happened over the weekend.  I had several things planned for the last night.  We had a time of reflection, a sand demonstration, a prayer circle, and a time of commitment.  I loved just getting to really see the hearts of these girls and see what they had taken from the weekend.  At the end of the night, I spent some time one on one with each girl that was a great learning experience for me and also another great way to see more of their heart.
Sunday morning we headed to church for the final wrap up and worship service.  It was a marvelous morning spent focused on the Lord and worshipping Him!  Then I said goodbye to by beautiful group of girls and headed home.  I was exhausted, yet full of joy!