Fusion & HOBY

A new school calendar year has begun and that means a new year of serving with SCC Fusion and a new HOBY KY year!!  I am excited for what the LORD has planned for both of these groups that I am serving with!

I have a great group of girls in my Life Group at SCC and I can’t wait to see how the Lord is going to use them this year!  I love these girls so much! I love getting to serve them and serve with them.  I am excited that they desire to know the Lord more each year.  They decided that their goal this year are to serve more as a group out in the community.  The also want to study Ruth & Colossians together this year!  I look forward to seeing how we grow together as a group and as Sisters in Christ this year!

Not only do I have a great group of girls in my Life Group, but I have a wonderful staff of volunteers working with me at HOBY KY!  I can’t wait to see how our program grows and develops this year!! As I was working on getting an agenda together for our meeting in a couple weeks I became even more excited for our 2014 seminar!  I have a talented staff and they truly make the seminar run!  I am blessed to get to serve as the LSC at KY this year & know that some great things will be accomplished through our Ambassadors.

Even though this is going to be a very busy year for me with SCC Fusion, HOBY KY, full time classes at Liberty and a full time job (with possible promotion), I couldn’t be more excited for what the Lord has in store and how He is going to use me this year!

Taking the Leap

Do I go for? Do I not? Is it a smart idea? Is it the right thing for me to do? Is it what God has planned for me? What if it is the right thing and I do not do it? What if is is not the right thing and I do do it?  Is this a selfish choice?

These are all questions that I have asked myself many times, but they have popped up a lot recently as I have considered taking a job in a new place where I do not really know anyone and I could not even tell you how to get to the McDonald’s let alone Kroger or Wal-Mart.  I have asked these questions as I decide to move to my 4th city in a less than a year and as I am around a month away from moving yet still do not have a place to live.  These questions and more are all ones that have been brought up in my mind as my church has been going through a series called “What If?”

So this week when Jason preached on What if you took that leap? I was really impacted.  I had already felt sure that going to BC was the thing I was supposed to do, but even that hadn’t stopped the questions and I can’t say that there aren’t still moments when I ask if this is the right thing, but I have been put at peace with where I am headed.

Here are some of the highlights from the sermon that really spoke to me.

We were examining this question using text from 1 Samuel 14.  Where Jonathan and his armor bearer move sneak away from their army and go to the Philistine outpost. (To get all the details you should totally read the story).

In this story Jonathan had conditions that looked really bad and appeared stacked against him, but he considers the situation and the facts and trusts in the Lord’s provision.  He didn’t just blindly make this decision, but he didn’t let all the What if this and that questions get in his way of taking the leap.

The more impressive part about the story deals with the armor bearer, who from what I know about history and Jason filled in is young, unexperienced, and weaponless.  Yet when Jonathan asks him to go with him to the outpost he follows with out hesitation.  He doesn’t have a weapon, let alone know how to use it, and is headed straight into the opposing army.

Through Jonathan and the armor bearer we can see that the leap is not contingent on our conditions nor our expertise and is not done blindly.  Taking a leap means having courage.  Instead of asking all of the questions, that do not get us anywhere and are really quite stupid, we should just stop and say I’ll do whatever.

There is one more person in this story to consider and that is Saul, Jonathan’s father.  He is the king and is leading the army into battle.  At the time that Jonathan and his armor bearer sneak off he is camped out under the pomegranate tree.  Waiting, he is full of fear and panic.  He is also engaging in a form of idol worship because the tree means more than just a place for shade and rest, it is an idol in their land.

The same thing happens to us when we are not using what God has given us to honor him.  When our time is more consumed with what our Facebook friends did on Friday night, what the trending topic on Twitter is right now, or who the newest “it” couple is then we are engaging in a form of idol worship.

After the sermon I was no longer thinking constantly about if the choices I was making about BC were the right thing or wrong thing and so on, but instead this is what I have been asking myself:

1. What am I holding higher than God (What is my pomegranate tree?)?

2. Am I Saul? OR Am I Jonathan and the Armor Bearer?

Struggles

So as of late I have been struggling a lot with where I am at in my life.  It all started as I transitioned from college, living in BG, having some amazing friends, and being connected to a wonderful body of believers at LHBC to living in Lville, being a Master’s student, not having a church, or a friend group.

 

As I made this transition I hit a low place in my walk with Christ.  I stopped having a quiet time, I stopped opening the Word, stopped praying, and didn’t really want to do any of those things.  I was going to different churches trying to find one to call “home” but believing that I would never find one that could be seen as a home. I missed LHBC, the people and the ability I had to serve there and that is where I wanted to be.  I had become very close-minded.

 

Not only had I become close minded towards churches, but also people.  I didn’t think there could be people that cared about me like the ones I had left in BG.  I didn’t think that there were friends to be had and I didn’t really make an effort to make any.

 

Needless to say my close-mindedness had made my life a huge struggle from day one of living in Lville.  So where am I now?

 

Well, life is still a struggle, but I have learned and seen that God is still sovereign and in control.  He has put me at an amazing church, among amazing people, and really blessed me and opened my eyes to see that I do have a “home” in Lville.  I have been so thankful for the community at Springdale.  If it wasn’t for the people there and the Lord so noticeably moving in that place I would probably still be stuck in my close-minded mess.  This doesn’t mean that everything is hunky dory and I am always the best person and in the best mood, but it does mean that I am human and that I am moving towards being closer to God like I once was.

 

I have still had trouble finding a friend group, but have met some pretty awesome people that are beginning to fill this role.  Thankfully.  I am so ready to have the community I once had, because life without it has been super hard.

 

One a slightly different note – another reason Lville has been such a struggle has been my work situation.  The family I work for seemed great at first but as I got into things this was not the case at all.  They are good people, but they are not the fit for me.  I love their children, but cannot continue working with them.  So this coming Friday will be my last day as thier nanny.

 

Another struggle of Lville has been my class schedule.  I really like one of my classes, another one has huge potential, and the other I thought I would like, but is way harder than I expected and I just do not like it.  It might be the basis of me changing my degree.

 

Hopefully things in my life will continue to get better, getting involved at Springdale is just the tip of the iceberg for what the Lord has for me I feel.  I am working on getting my quiet time back on track, hoping to get involved more in a small group of believers to hold me accountable and to live life with, and hopefully I will find another job soon, because if not then my life will be another set of worries and struggles.

 

Well that is my rant and dumping of how I feel right now.  This is what I am doing instead of working on my Systematic Theology Paper that is due Tuesday.