I am having so much fun with my new job! I have taken over as a caregiver for an amazing four year old that I love so much! I have known him from birth and his parents are some of my closest friends. It is so much fun getting to hang out with him and see the progress he makes day-to-day. While days may not look the same as with some other four year olds, I couldn’t imagine days any other way. Wy has some speech and sensory issues, which can make things challenging, but also makes things new and lets me tap into my counseling and education knowledge and degrees to come up with new a creative ways to work with him. Right now his favorite activity is puzzles. Some days we work 10-15 puzzles (Good thing I enjoy them 😉 ) Here are some pictures of my first month with Wyatt! I love hanging out with him!
A new school calendar year has begun and that means a new year of serving with SCC Fusion and a new HOBY KY year!! I am excited for what the LORD has planned for both of these groups that I am serving with!
I have a great group of girls in my Life Group at SCC and I can’t wait to see how the Lord is going to use them this year! I love these girls so much! I love getting to serve them and serve with them. I am excited that they desire to know the Lord more each year. They decided that their goal this year are to serve more as a group out in the community. The also want to study Ruth & Colossians together this year! I look forward to seeing how we grow together as a group and as Sisters in Christ this year!
Not only do I have a great group of girls in my Life Group, but I have a wonderful staff of volunteers working with me at HOBY KY! I can’t wait to see how our program grows and develops this year!! As I was working on getting an agenda together for our meeting in a couple weeks I became even more excited for our 2014 seminar! I have a talented staff and they truly make the seminar run! I am blessed to get to serve as the LSC at KY this year & know that some great things will be accomplished through our Ambassadors.
Even though this is going to be a very busy year for me with SCC Fusion, HOBY KY, full time classes at Liberty and a full time job (with possible promotion), I couldn’t be more excited for what the Lord has in store and how He is going to use me this year!
In the past five years since committing my life to Christ, I have never been able to attend church on Easter, due to work and other conflicts, but even though I will not be at an Easter service tomorrow, I will be rejoicing with my brothers and sisters in Christ, because our sinless Savior died and ROSE from the DEAD so that we could spend eternity with His father! I am so blessed!
Even though not going to church is not what I would have wanted for my Easter Sunday, I am committing myself to showing and sharing Christ with those I work with and the people who come into the store tomorrow.
Praise the Lord for he is good in abundance! I talked to the GM at Panera in Richmond today and he said that it was not a problem for me to transfer there and agreed to give me the 2-3 shifts a week that I requested. I am so thankful for a God who provides for me!
So as of late I have been struggling a lot with where I am at in my life. It all started as I transitioned from college, living in BG, having some amazing friends, and being connected to a wonderful body of believers at LHBC to living in Lville, being a Master’s student, not having a church, or a friend group.
As I made this transition I hit a low place in my walk with Christ. I stopped having a quiet time, I stopped opening the Word, stopped praying, and didn’t really want to do any of those things. I was going to different churches trying to find one to call “home” but believing that I would never find one that could be seen as a home. I missed LHBC, the people and the ability I had to serve there and that is where I wanted to be. I had become very close-minded.
Not only had I become close minded towards churches, but also people. I didn’t think there could be people that cared about me like the ones I had left in BG. I didn’t think that there were friends to be had and I didn’t really make an effort to make any.
Needless to say my close-mindedness had made my life a huge struggle from day one of living in Lville. So where am I now?
Well, life is still a struggle, but I have learned and seen that God is still sovereign and in control. He has put me at an amazing church, among amazing people, and really blessed me and opened my eyes to see that I do have a “home” in Lville. I have been so thankful for the community at Springdale. If it wasn’t for the people there and the Lord so noticeably moving in that place I would probably still be stuck in my close-minded mess. This doesn’t mean that everything is hunky dory and I am always the best person and in the best mood, but it does mean that I am human and that I am moving towards being closer to God like I once was.
I have still had trouble finding a friend group, but have met some pretty awesome people that are beginning to fill this role. Thankfully. I am so ready to have the community I once had, because life without it has been super hard.
One a slightly different note – another reason Lville has been such a struggle has been my work situation. The family I work for seemed great at first but as I got into things this was not the case at all. They are good people, but they are not the fit for me. I love their children, but cannot continue working with them. So this coming Friday will be my last day as thier nanny.
Another struggle of Lville has been my class schedule. I really like one of my classes, another one has huge potential, and the other I thought I would like, but is way harder than I expected and I just do not like it. It might be the basis of me changing my degree.
Hopefully things in my life will continue to get better, getting involved at Springdale is just the tip of the iceberg for what the Lord has for me I feel. I am working on getting my quiet time back on track, hoping to get involved more in a small group of believers to hold me accountable and to live life with, and hopefully I will find another job soon, because if not then my life will be another set of worries and struggles.
Well that is my rant and dumping of how I feel right now. This is what I am doing instead of working on my Systematic Theology Paper that is due Tuesday.
So this has been the week for me to see that life isn’t always what it is cracked up to be. I have been bogged down with school, my job, and life in general. I don’t even feel that busy, but I feel overwhelmed!
School to me seems manageable and I am working on and learning prioritizing my life. I am taking Greek, which is a lot of work, memorization, and time! That alone has been a stressor. Not to mention I have to read, a lot! I love to read, but sometimes I want to read things that have nothing to do with something I am going to be tested over or have to write a paper over. However, being in seminary is completely different than college. I am learning things that I can apply to life, which makes it easier and I am really having to learn to not think about seminary just as school, but as a tool for ministry.
My job. Well, I love the kiddos, but I am learning that I do way more work than I am credited for or paid for. Part of me is saying, “just be a servant and keep helping them out, credit isn’t important.” The other part of me is saying “you aren’t going to be able to save money, pay of debt, or travel if you don’t make more money for the amount of time and effort you are putting in.” Again, I love the kids, but this is the hardest job I have ever had. I am not sure what to do. I would love to look for a job that is going to pay more, but I don’t know if that is what I am supposed to do.
Life – my life has been in upheaval since moving. I haven’t had a church home, a circle of friends to hang out with or encourage me, or challenge me, and I haven’t felt like I am making a difference. I know part of my problem is that I have been lacking in my daily quiet time and I am working on getting that back on track. I am starting a new bible study tonight! I am also starting to get involved at a church and I love it! Tomorrow I am going to the Wednesday night prayer service. I am hoping that I can find a small group to get involved in, because I really miss having the accountability, challenges, and encouragement.
Another huge thing in my life is that I am praying about going overseas for 11 months later this year and next. I would love the opportunity and think that this is where the Lord is leading me, but the thought is also overwhelming knowing I have a car loan, school loans, and the general cost of the trip and all. I know that if it is in His plan that everything will work out. I guess we will see what happens. I would appreciate your prayers in this area for sure!