So this has been the week for me to see that life isn’t always what it is cracked up to be. I have been bogged down with school, my job, and life in general. I don’t even feel that busy, but I feel overwhelmed!
School to me seems manageable and I am working on and learning prioritizing my life. I am taking Greek, which is a lot of work, memorization, and time! That alone has been a stressor. Not to mention I have to read, a lot! I love to read, but sometimes I want to read things that have nothing to do with something I am going to be tested over or have to write a paper over. However, being in seminary is completely different than college. I am learning things that I can apply to life, which makes it easier and I am really having to learn to not think about seminary just as school, but as a tool for ministry.
My job. Well, I love the kiddos, but I am learning that I do way more work than I am credited for or paid for. Part of me is saying, “just be a servant and keep helping them out, credit isn’t important.” The other part of me is saying “you aren’t going to be able to save money, pay of debt, or travel if you don’t make more money for the amount of time and effort you are putting in.” Again, I love the kids, but this is the hardest job I have ever had. I am not sure what to do. I would love to look for a job that is going to pay more, but I don’t know if that is what I am supposed to do.
Life – my life has been in upheaval since moving. I haven’t had a church home, a circle of friends to hang out with or encourage me, or challenge me, and I haven’t felt like I am making a difference. I know part of my problem is that I have been lacking in my daily quiet time and I am working on getting that back on track. I am starting a new bible study tonight! I am also starting to get involved at a church and I love it! Tomorrow I am going to the Wednesday night prayer service. I am hoping that I can find a small group to get involved in, because I really miss having the accountability, challenges, and encouragement.
Another huge thing in my life is that I am praying about going overseas for 11 months later this year and next. I would love the opportunity and think that this is where the Lord is leading me, but the thought is also overwhelming knowing I have a car loan, school loans, and the general cost of the trip and all. I know that if it is in His plan that everything will work out. I guess we will see what happens. I would appreciate your prayers in this area for sure!